I was probably a child, not a teenager when this was said to me. Very young I didn’t think it was a long commitment or something that would destroy my lifetime. I was probably still attending Punahou School of Honolulu, Hawaii at the time, which means third grade or younger. I want people to KNOW WHY I AM NOT TO BE USED THESE DAYS. This is decades later. I am not supposed to be a lame, disabled sitting duck while gang members encircle me and threaten people. It is possible I am actually being held “politely” right now and hostaged to people I don’t know far away.
I was not planning on this post, it came to mind and it is haunting me. I see what is happening in Gaza Strip and Israel and I think to myself, “How many times have a I yelled and cried out as I was taken away by strangers?” I got so beat up and drugged so many times, I honestly do not know who I originally belonged to. I may actually be better off now than if I had stayed in Hawaii. I do not know for certain. What maybe everyone should realize is that I honestly do not know who my family was at birth. I am not 100% certain where I was born. I DO KNOW THAT I AM NOT MEXICAN and there were many angry with Russians in the 1970s… some tried to pretend I was one of them.
Worse, as a teenager I did try to return to Honolulu, HI and I was very unsafe. I was very hazed and injured. Maui was ignoring and injuring me also. It caused me to want to move to California, take my chances… here.
What I am saying is I have been through a lot trying to help others even without being wealthy. I am in my 50s now and I am STILL INJURED. Sadly, I’ve gotten used to it over the decades. My movements are restricted, I can’t just “roll over in bed” when I am trying to sleep, my neck and back spasm some for days if I do any leaning over and turn combinations. I am NOT RIGHT. I cannot fight to protect myself.
It does anger me if people ask me for money and they are tougher, stronger, younger and better connected. I’ve been forced not to have my own family and work/career.
My hunch is you need Chase Masterson the brown skinned man for money. Or people who got me, used to need him. In the 1970s he was a very strong, well connected, educated leadership looking individual. He’s probably older and retired by now. If not him, people who actually WORKED at BYCORP. Those people actually know of me. They would have information and at least work money to speak about. Probably healthy enough to work full time and know people all over California and other states where they worked… in construction as well as entertainment. Some, perhaps many have retired already due to age since they were older than me. I am NOT a back up to them though. I never did work for BYCORP.
I dare people to ask around if I am a “forgiven child” as well as a “terrorized artist”. People need to know what is going on. I am supposed to be “retirement aged” out of all kinds of things, including any duties of helping others. I did ask and ask and ask before I turned 50 and even after, if there was something I owed people and what are people expecting? I was not spoken to. I was not sent a new agreement or contract for anything.
I don’t want to keep blogging. I am praying it helps my life for others to know who I am not and who I am.
the ‘wind’ admits, “…that [I am] used to not doing well, and if start to they will mug me.”
My response: I thought that was part of the “Paramount deal” that I was attached to without any known paperwork. What “deal” is this really?