Honestly, I don’t think my time in California was all that productive. I may have done a lot more for Californians before I left Hawaii full time in the early 1990s.
Adding this from hints on the ‘wind’: People claimed me as disabled in the 1970s and made work deals based on that for my entire life. Meaning, there was no actual plan to include me full time in any workforce. It is noted I’ve been misidentified and attacked by gang members who may not have been paying close attention to which person I am. Many have gone to prison for harming me. I didn’t look disabled to the U.S. Government because people were actually taking care of my life, making certain I had some money to live on. However, doing the way it was done I should have been home with parents not off on my own.
I wish to add again that coming back to San Diego to live long term I had thought I could do more things with people even if not money making, and even money losing like making ultra low budget movies or videos for our own entertainment. I never had a paper copy of the “Paramount deal” or notes on why I was not supposed to be creative for myself with a video camera. Memory even told me people had PROMISED to make a feature movie with me as producer in San Diego, CA when I finally got people later in life… which I got them between 2015-2019 or so. HOWEVER… REAL MEMORY is that getting location scouting for one of the Jurassic Park/World films in San Diego a long time ago was an excellent replacement. So I won’t complain about not being able to become a local feature film producer in San Diego County.
I used to think if I created something, I’d get to work with the idea long term even if a very small idea. I’m actually not supposed to do much now no matter what due to past gang problems. I need to be more retired in thinking also.
Which brings me to the “Why am I on the west coast?” Because I have a feeling being in California makes it look like I am available for entertainment gang members to grab me and include me at will. May even look like I’m interested still in the entertainment biz. Maybe I should leave the west and get further away from old business and old memories? What is present is IT JUST FEELS LIKE GANGS ARE TRYING TO USE ME AT A DISTANCE, even trafficking me to the L.A. courts is helping their peoples in some way and I am not certain it is.
I am NOT RESPECTED LIKE A DAUGHTER of Hollywood and professional entertainment. I’m just someone gangs picked up after clobbering over and over again.