My response: Well, I was not certain what was going on for real. Even in my youth I was surprised that I was REMOVED FROM SCHOOLS do “go do things”. I did like doing things… however I realize it was VERY NOT NORMAL to be doing those things! (laughing to myself) I appear to have “served” many masters while young. I was separated from family a lot so I tried to “just get things done”. There was a promise of helping me later on. So I had to commit to just getting things done and “going with what was going on”. I was not prepared most of the time. Rumor is gang members called each other and then I got picked up instead of someone else more often than they thought of!
Some say I was supposed to be VERY RETIRED with a group of people in the 1970s. I was so distraught and harassed, I may have insisted on future college and work like normal people. I DID NOT THINK MY FAMILY HAD ENOUGH MONEY TO SUPPORT ME… because I didn’t see them all the time. As things played out, I spent a lot of time with strangers who were begging for money. I was not certain who they were… I feared they were relatives or friends of them.
Some had said they planned to write a novel about me someday… which meant I was on a 24/7/365 hire to them? I don’t know if that held or not. I visited a lot of people when I was young. Some upset at my poor health, some laughed.
While young I thought there was a chance I could be a producer someday… however I FORGOT I was supposed to be an INFLUENCER… which looks like work even when not working? I don’t know now.
Whatever the past was, I was told that by 50 years old to take retirement age and not work on anything important–if I had no contract.* I have a feeling they meant any IPs or ideas for them. However it is decades later and I feel I was okay’d for Twitter videos, nothing professional looking.
I WANT TO REMIND PEOPLE: I was supposed to “return to San Diego and make a feature movie” with a group of people… who have apparently scattered, retired, probably did so many things long ago… anyway… that was spoken of in the 1970s when I was young. It didn’t happen with me like people may have thought. A lot changed since I was an actual baby and youth. I got to help IN PERSON on VERY REAL, VERY BIG FEATURE MOVIES a long time ago. I think back then we said, “Yup, all good.” Like we did enough. I did do some location scouting in San Diego County a very long time ago for some “additional photography” on a variety of future Hollywood IPs. It was satisfying! I’m sad I never became a local well known filmmaker who made a feature… ugly, stupid or even charming. However, I got to do some other cool things and I feel the original team to help me has separated a long time ago anyway.
* I have a feeling that I was bound to more than one false or true surrogate and I was not certain who they were/are. Meaning if I retired, they would have to. So even though I was supposed to be retired, I actually could not fully. Even now I sense there is some confusion. OVER TIME, I MAY HAVE BEEN BOUND TO MORE THAN ONE and it forced me to be their ghost. It may have confused me, them and all the contacts involved. Would explain why I was not ready or prepared for a lot of things going on. Even right now. It is likely because I was a ghost and in the wilderness so long. I don’t know who is who out in public. I beg a little forgiveness on this. I see gang members haunting a little bit, watching… probably more than me.