I’m even calling off development on Deadsville the Movie –“so dead it can’t be produced” at least for a long while. My alarm for 611pm PST on a Saturday has been going off every week and this is the first one in months that I lifted some fingers related to it. Okay?
My life wasn’t what I expected it to be. It was tougher and more violent getting through all kinds of things, and I did get harmed. I had hoped to be finally “retired from being beaten up and harassed” someday and be free to do what I want. It isn’t quite that. I didn’t think about the idea I’d be ill and old injuries causing me some grief.
Realize, many of the injuries I got from gang members may have been because I was the “wrong person” for the situation, not because I was taunting people. (I lost count how many times I woke up somewhere* and started chatting with people and they got angry I was NOT THE ONE THEY WERE EXPECTING). It’s why I’m okay sitting at home and not seeking to do much now. I realize what actually happened! For decades I was not aware what the conflicts were. I’m still not aware to be honest, so…I’m staying home more to let people know I’m NOT TRYING TO DO MUCH.
*I was kidnapped and left in places. I never knew in advance what was going on. I have a feeling I was not the only one it happened to. I was usually knocked out again and removed too. So I can’t say for certain where I was or who I met.