I also suffered A LOT already. One of the Joshua’s knew I was going to be retired young and kept from workplaces until old enough if ever. He was ANGRY about it and swore to make me miserable. He probably did the wrong thing and gathered people, including BYCORP people to work against me, kidnap me, slander and get me into a lot of trouble while young. So instead of getting to know a lot of people over time, I was minimized and injured, drugged* a lot. People stayed away and I sat at home bewildered, confused, upset and food insecure.
It was said a LONG TIME AGO… that mafia should not put hits on me because I didn’t have the appropriate access to funds to pay anyone off. And I was NOT a CAA member either. It meant I was not connected tightly to people in Hollywood. All I was allowed to do was STAND IN for others. I was not given a long term identity to use in the entertainment business.
Standing in for others: It may have made me more of a target than I realized. I never really knew what was going on because I WAS TOO UNADOPTED. People were NOT telling me what was going on, warning me about anything or anyone. I sometimes was drugged in school or out in public, woke up on a sound stage or film location and I just winged it what was going on! More than once I had amnesia and had to ask “Who am I to these people here?” And it was truth. I was smuggled to some movie location scouts and didn’t know anyone.
Because of my history, I cannot just get up my courage and small money and pursue work with people in the entertainment business. I’ve been forced out a long time ago. I wish to note: The Kushner Law Offices may have been one of the teams HIRED and THREATENED to NOT allow me a real position in Hollywood. In the 1970s, they were a bunch of migrants in and out of those offices. They were all gang members and had agendas. I was not actually planned for!
*Sometimes it was toxins more than some drug a gang member gave me.