I was not one of their stars. I got to meet some in the 1990s. Typically the successful photography and film people were big heavy MEN from that particular school. I appeared to have been committed very early on. Possibly as far back as when I was getting Punahou, maybe before then. I had visited the school very young, under 4 years old if I recall correctly. They chose to pretend a few things to save face. They dismissed me and spoke with people in Ventura, CA and Oxnard, CA and obviously Santa Barbara and Los Angeles+ regarding ideas I had in my youth.
By the time I got the school as an adult I was very ill and injured. Some gang people were STILL MESSING WITH ME HEAVILY from Los Angeles for some reason. It appeared San Diegans also drove up to Santa Barbara, CA and gang attacked me too. I had complete amnesia of who was who… including any history I had with anyone. Looks like they made sure of it. Brooks also promised people not to allow me to work after college. NO PLAN FOR IT.
What people NEED TO UNDERSTAND: There have been SHORTAGES of money for any entertainment workers already living in Los Angeles and other major cities. Doesn’t matter the age and skills of the person, nor the job position. It is my impression Brooks did TRIAGE and tried to help hundreds if not thousands of professionals across the U.S. stay in business. They may have helped me also, no proof of it… that I have some money to live on, and for me to just stay out of the big boys’ businesses. This is me writing about what I think it was. I did not have a mafia person sit me down and explain all things.
I wish to remind all that I semi-look okay at a distance, however I do not have my own home. I can’t afford to rent a 1br apartment full time and carry all the expenses myself for living in San Diego, CA. I am not wealthy enough to even visit with important people in town, it would embarrass them. I’ve been fortunate to be adopted here and there with people connected at the San Diego Comic Con and other events/venues who understand very unfunded artists. I actually am in that category. So underfunded I can’t afford myself for living expenses. No way can I open a little shop and hire some assistants. I’m too ill and been a past sea hag. Many may know it and just don’t talk about it. By the grace of humanity I have been allowed to visit neat events like the San Diego Comic Con and also movie theaters and stage performance places. (I used to visit places and events in Los Angeles also!) I am not wealthy nor well connected. It wasn’t actually necessary to keep me well connected, ever.
I know this looks contrary to what I wanted to do in the year 2020! I had some inheritance money, motivation and time… I was hoping to connect better and take a step upwards and join others in pursuit of developing new projects even a short time. Me joining a team or helping create a new one. DID NOT HAPPEN. I also ended up just burning off my funds. I’m even in debt now more than ever.