BY JEALOUS GANG MEMBERS. I am really sorry. I also cannot pretend to be someone talented and well connected. THERE IS NO ONE TO PLAY WITH. Best I could do is gather myself and be decent looking even marginally skilled with visual arts in recent decades. It appears there is actually TOO MUCH COMPETITION especially in California and Hawaii. Gang members of many sizes, ages, and clout want to LOOK BETTER THAN ME*. I do not want to be in conflict with them. I am okay looking kinda stupid in California. Decades ago it was very forced on me to look un-desirable. I’m almost amused and entertained that someone thinks I am well connected, cloutful and monied right now. For the area I am living in, I’m likely in the lower 20% in terms of financial wealth and health.
*They are not all established U.S. citizens. I feel there are genuine migrants living cash-only who want to look more impressive than me. I don’t know them in person, they may be well connected gang members and dangerous.