I’ve been having trouble with my body’s health in recent years and it is still sketchy. I am very not race ready for a job even part time. I did not expect this. I’m actually upset about it, even scares me. Trying to keep my mind cool daily, honestly fear I have real cancer and no one is telling me about it.
This is not a ploy to play with the L.A. courts and law enforcement. They actually do know me well. May have even anticipated it. I’ve not known my own limits in life because I was in denial and had a big spirit, and still thought in ambitious ways. Now I’m not. Not at all. Maybe that is what is scaring me. I am scared. I am thinking in very small ways more often. Like just doing small things around home… and not feeling well enough to actually do them.
I wish to ask for forgiveness from everyone who thought I had more to give. I don’t think I do myself now. I don’t have confidence in handling my own small life right now. Very worried.
Recently I had some memory returning about some previs I did on Battlestar Galactica for the character Laura Roslin. And that’s what’s upsetting me greatly. She never got to live on new Earth.
Sticking this to the top of my blog until I feel more confident about my health.
Update 1/14/2025: I am feeling better. I have many things to write about (including L.A. Strong) however I am leaning toward backing off this blog anyway for other reasons. I pray for us all, quietly. Earth Strong.