My problem is I don’t have a list. It just looks like I CAN’T DO MUCH ANYWHERE. In Hawaii, it looked like I couldn’t even be in certain parts of Oahu or buy from certain markets and food places, walk on certain sidewalks, banned from certain parks and museums, etc. It was very crazy for me there and why I am not interested in returning to Hawaii. I’ve had similar experiences in San Diego. Like some people who mugged me wanted to own certain places long term, forever even if they lived in another country. Believe it or not, even visiting Balboa Park has been sketchy… and I just wanted a walk and maybe a soda at times in my life. It even looked sketchy going there with a gang member for lunch! I’ve been blocked at fast food places, movie theaters, shopping malls and more in the past.
This idea of me being leadership is laughable! I know what my own life has looked like.
Even now I’ve had a difficult time doing online learning like taking hobby related and college courses. It was a disaster doing college in person in the 1990s as I got blocked and hazed. It didn’t make sense to me, as it was only education not a promise of work.