I’m Too Damaged to Continue, Even if People Insert More Coins

Can we all accept this? I sometimes barely get through my own days at home without a pain or fatigue or other ailment reminding me I am not well enough to be a champion or even pretend one for others. I no longer have the strength and energy it takes to “stand and deliver” well for anything, anywhere. It is depressing. Have a feeling this is TRUTH for others also.

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If you know what an arcade game is… table top or stand up… if there is any corruption or damage in the programming… the game may only be able to play the simple parts, only the first few levels… and the advanced ones that take up more memory and resources of the system… cannot function. Some games get so messed up they can barely run the insert coin and intro splash screens over and over… and no matter who puts in a coin… the game is too broken to actually run.

Heh.. don’t get me started about robots that fight… Just go watch some movies. This is where I am redirecting people BACK TO MARC SCOTT ZICREE. Even if he is not your go to for Oscar award winning content, he can elaborate on what I’ve written about. Someone like him KNOWS A LOT MORE PEOPLE. And that is the key thing. Some people who DID GOOD WORK a long time ago got phased out simply because OTHERS wanted to step in and get the involvement.

I’m actually in the wilderness, and I am damaged. There are others like me I am certain. Not all can write about things like I have. I am sharing on their behalf also.

Update (next morning): Chatter on the ‘wind’ this morning. I sense nodding heads, and younger people having to explain to non-gamers. I credit the ‘wind’ on this one: “Don’t play damaged games.” And they were hinting I am like a damaged system that people do not know. the ‘wind’ is adding, “She is a retired system. Looks important. Formerly important. Not in service now.” My response is, yes, that is an adequate description. I am NOT FULLY FUNCTIONAL, this is key. On board damage I need to be handled with care. I won’t explode, however if something goes too wrong other systems may power up. I do spend most of my time in hibernation mode or close to it. I’ve diverted too much energy on splash screens in recent years to remind people I may not be “the console or game” they think or thought I am. Someone, including me, built on many “handler codes” and even “wrappers” decades ago.

I am one of the Ready Player babies. There is too much TROUBLE and DANGER for me to participate again. It could be why 2 and 3 may not go into production until they find replacements for ME AND OTHER BABIES. What may surprise people is that I originally WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE. It looked like a Taiwanese or other Asian boy in the 1970s. He was NOT READY ENOUGH, and I had already some WGA training, so I stepped up and into some things that may have put me in grave danger for a long time, though truly helping many other systems people did not plan on.

Update (later): the ‘wind’ is admitting gang members were mugging certain types of people and were paid to do it. That I’m one of many who was [targeted very young]. Also that there was NEVER a plan for me to recover fully and work for real. Deals were made a long time ago for others to work and they fought hard to get those jobs which appeared to be ones I could have done myself. I cannot step into them at all full time, it has not been arranged. Some are still working AND HAVE TO as a result of what was arranged a long time ago.

It IS NOT ARRANGED for me to be a “virtual person for others to use”. Right now. I did warn people on Twitter in 2020 not to be “Russian married” to me because I needed a clear channel to let people know what was going on with me personally! I was being very misidentified and unable to be something for others out in public places. I was actually trapped and stuck into a path I did not want and had not much ability to be original in. It made me look like many other people, I could tell. And I had to re-meet people who may have known me for decades who had PROGRAMMING on how to handle me. It was NOT GOOD in some ways. What’s not arranged is that I was given “retirement age of 50” AND there is NO WORK-LOOKING AGENDA for me to work on while at home–that simple. No one is reaching out to me to do something for them, not even small. I am ghosted again! It likely means the fake surrogates are just busy doing their things and I’ve actually CYCLED OUT AND AWAY back into the wilderness like I mostly have been in life.