If my life had gone differently, I would be MORE PUBLIC right now. I am honestly not well enough and I do not have a large contact base to support and protect me. So I am authentically just a weak geek at home these days who USED TO DO MORE a long time ago. It was a VERY LONG TIME AGO. I was more robust and challenged, taunted myself and I interacted with some amazing characters. I can’t go back decades and rekindle that person in me. Too dead.
Here’s a famous guy who got really weakened by illness and passed on. I’m not this bad. It illustrates what happens to some people who were known to be hardier, stronger, a bigger presence. He got so really weak geek looking! RIP Steve Jobs.
Dressing Up and Dressing Down?
Besides actual health, I was told to dress down in public. They wanted Mexicans to look more important.* This was the 1970s in San Diego, CA. I really have not been told differently. At times I’ve tried to dress better to show others I had been healed and recovered–important news for some. However, I still have a weak core and fundamentally I am weakened. People who know me, know it. I’m not a tough person ready for full time or even part time work. I am very soft now and like a “wife at home” more than ever. I don’t have a strong husband, so I try to get more done than I should on my own.
* I wrote a post about clothing out in public. What We Are Wearing in Public