I should choose to hate people and be an angry person full time and stand-offish due to the mixed bag of treatment and abuses in my life. However, I’ve seen enough to know the world and its peoples need more healing than damnation.
I know not all “Mexicans” and “Mexico City” are against me or see me as a targeted human to use like a terrorized artist. I’m glad so many are NOT NEEDY. I must have gotten a group of needy people from south of the border as well as elsewhere. I have honestly tried to accommodate a lot of people especially in my youth. It was really tough going to please everyone.
Now that I am so small, even smaller in net worth than ever… yes, my own net worth went down a lot in recent years… I’m back to being a stump, NOT a Giving Tree. Even at full size, full value… I was not a very big tree. People used me for other things–like just social chatting and friendship. That is something most people can afford.
I am older now, much older than decades ago. I am limited again and again because it is very likely the big people want the attention and control of the smaller people. I can respect that.
Please, in the future… only use me as a social person. Please don’t use me like a fake relative to steal from. I’m actually a cool cat underneath the layers of fears and stresses from local and distant gang members. I’d much rather just buy a coffee now and then for someone. A simple, human gesture. I can’t right now, however maybe next year I’ll meet some new people who are willing just to be a social only connection. Please no more hit people. I am financially and emotionally very spent.
Not having much to work with, I may start a new practice of praying for others and daily. If you hear about it, please don’t copy cat verbatim? Do your own thing if you wish. Maybe if we all wish for it, we can have more peace and understandings locally and globally.
Noting I am not of any one religion at this time. Just my own individuality and a god (or gods) of unknown true nature.