May Have Been a “Public Servant” Myself All Along Here’s Why

Noting that I am not involved anywhere, not informed with any insider information about anything these days. I look functionally RETIRED. What may have happened is in the turmoil of the 1970s globally, I became of something far bigger than just a little creative IP person and had to. It may have been for temporary work and then got stuck more than I realized.* My becoming bigger at the time helped others be more enabled and also grow. Some, maybe many continued and got higher places and funding for life. I can’t guarantee what happened, as I have not been back to all kinds of places and I hardly got to meet people back then.

I’ve been low budget, allowed to get all kinds of high and low people. I visited all kinds of places and peoples, good and bad… near and far! Field work. I didn’t have a real corporation or organization home office or a “team at home”. I looked freelance even to the U.S.A. and other countries? Anyway… what’s important is I was given some education about the workings of various kinds of international organizations and governments as well as domestic and foreign policies while very young. I could have been in line to get work for a government or international organization as an adult. Instead, I got mugged down a lot and others took my place in a lot of places. I was NOT in command of those people.

If I lead anyone it was with ideas. Because I got such a variety of people to talk with in my youth I leaned toward philosophies and care about planet Earth in general–which is beyond just politics and policies in small and big places. I became more of a student the more I learned. Appears I was becoming above average too much and looking too important to competitive spirits everywhere. So looks like I had to get mugged because I was getting sabotaged already while young. It was better just to take a smaller life full time, as it seems that is what leaders wanted. I was getting too used so I couldn’t direct my own life to a smaller self, it appears to have been ordered for me to be small in society.

Cannot deny I “got big” for a while a long time ago, and some people still tried to hold me higher than my life could accommodate.

I’ve had to be small, it is much more practical for every day living.

Honestly, everyone… if I had been someone living in a big palace, mansion, castle, major compound or other facility of leadership of even local communities I would have been a smaller person within those fences, walls, protections. I was never a “heavy hitter” like in baseball. I would have been a smaller sized coach on the sidelines working with others on not just developing players, helping coordinate the team and plays themselves. I would have been on salary, not an investor profiteering. I say, “Would have…” because I actually got so mugged, clobbered, slandered, defamed, injured… I never got a real career or solid job. I did my “work for humanity” before I was an adult and retired in nature before I was a teenager–that’s what it looks like. Some have said I, “Did too much already,” before I was an adult. It may be why people shoved me off so many future worker lists. Gang members are very competitive people. Many may have decided to keep me out of future larger earnings opportunities so they could try to get them. They may have also wanted all the contacts I could have developed myself. I’ve been too weak to do much most of my life. Even when I got/get strong I can’t keep up my energy.

*I had visited important places like Buckingham Palace as well as the U.S.A. White House as well as some other leadership places in other countries in the 1970s and 80s. They themselves may have boosted me for a time and others kept me alive longer than I knew about. I thought I was very lost and in the wilderness since I am so “dead meat” and “de-activated” for people. I KNOW I AM SMALL, OKAY? I am very average in society, even less than average because I’ve lived small for decades now. I’ve not been hiding, I’m just functionally retired.