I was very young, and adult gang members and leaders stepped up to carry on the forums. I myself asked to be excused because I knew I was in a compromised and under-informed position. I never asked to return because I was so mugged and sold out… which is different than weakened.
I may have been full time mugged for more than one San Diegan. I even look mugged for the San Diego Spielberg Team to be more important and do public speaking. At minimum there are also fake family members I’ve been violently beaten up for them to step up and speak a long time ago. I actually was crumpled on the ground so they could step up fresh and strong with gang members beside them.
People may have PAID and THREATENED to be more important out in public than me personally. I was not aware fully of what was going on. I have been beaten up and drugged to help THEM show others clearly what is going on. Looks like it was easier just to force me to sit at home by not having me out much and not saying much. So I have not much of my life as a result.
I have been out in public VERY WEAKENED and SICK, INJURED TOO… it wasn’t because of people listening to me. I was actually just gang banged, mugged for someone else to have clout. In recent history I got politely mugged by the L.A. court system. I’ve been taken down by handling and money expenditures. I was ill on my own originally.
I have gotten used to not saying much in public anyway. I simply had nothing to add! Be aware… a long time ago people DRUGGED ME to “keep talking”.