In a different life I’d simply look like an ill, damaged quiet wife at home and gang members would be interacting with my husband and other family members anyway. I still have closed doors, which means I can’t reach out and do much even if I felt really good and had money to work with!
Honestly. I need to focus on my little hobbies. I wrote a lot on this blog site because I can see gang members stalking me and I’m not certain why. I’ve had to be average a long time now due to lack of contacts and money. You can be a friend out in public if you wish. I just don’t have a lot to offer people. I am backing off writing as a hobby-ish thing.
I really am sorry if you thought I was something different. I am NOT the actual gang member. You need to get one of them. They may have been false surrogates in the 1970s and 80s who studied me a while.
One more note: One of those “Clinton’s” from the 1970s did intend to keep me around knowing I had been involved with previs. It was not very arranged with me at all. There was no official hiring, though it looked somewhat planned for. I have a feeling a lot got turned over to some very tough gangsters in Los Angeles and I really took the hits being involved. I probably got stuck in with actual convict producers even though I was NOT making deals, had no office nor did I spend time in them for entertainment industry OR politics.
Update: Lots of chatter on the ‘wind’. My response is: NO ONE WANTED ME TO PAY FOR ANYTHING. It is a form of power they didn’t want me to have since the 1970s. They saw quickly how popular I was on very little money shared back then. If I did pay for anything it was very pre-arranged. I have to admit, it was likely poor human traffickers, migrants, and convicts who did not want to compete with me. To this day, I am not actually allowed to hire migrant workers. Often gang members have stepped in and given me APPROVED people. Honestly, being in a leadership position with people is a form of gang leadership and people don’t want me to have those powers much at all, certainly not long term.
the ‘wind’ was bringing up they thought I was going to “Pay for Clinton and Alex”… my response is NO. The ones I got in the 1970s are older than me and more established gang members who are very capable of gathering people and money. If I was ALSO given poor ones, I am not certain what the meaning is.
I’ve also been given a “Mitch” who people demanded I pay off when I was in San Diego in the early 1990s… and he was NOT the “Mitch” from Lost Boys who had producing partners and money… that Mitch wrote me off and adopted others TO PAY OFF HIMSELF.
I lost count how many “John Henry Felix’s” I met in the 1970s. I want to say at least three. Different heights, ages too. One looked like a politician, another a producer/trafficker in Los Angeles, another like an old sea hag in prison and some others?
What’s worse is… someone may still think I’m a “Steven” on some document somewhere… if they didn’t then why do they THINK I can hire/pay off people? How many Stevens do they think there are? The biggest “Stephen” who looks real legit was Stephen J. Cannell. If not a “Steven” does someone think I am a “Donna” on some document somewhere? They did pay off people also. At least one WORKED FOR Stephen J. Cannell. Again… people NEED TO GET THE ACTUAL GANG MEMBERS. They have connections as well as lots of people to share information with.
I’m not an employed person by any company or gang to hire and pay people. very sorry.
Oh! I want to note something about buying little stuff…products…here and there on eBay, Etsy, Amazon, Walmart and more. In the past I talked about how cool something was, how “I’d buy that” and more. Keeping to my own word as I am enabled to: I have purchased things for myself, even others. I’m still low budget. I am not trying to impress people. It’s my way of “paying in” by buying products, goods that I said I wanted to try out, own, play with, use myself. There is A LOT I cannot do. It is a way of sharing money without “paying off” the wrong people by accident. I feel small and large businesses need customers, sellers need buyers.