How Mafia Crippled am I?

Reminder: I was NOT the “Steven” who left the U.S.A. (L.A. was the last time I saw them) with over $1b in the 1970s/possibly early 80s. I was not their people enough to ask for some money before they left.

When was the last time you saw me show up at Mar A Lago, announced and wealthy enough to buy a lunch for 12-20 people, make a standing announcement and get some applause? Even if I flew economy class to get there. Yeah, IT NEVER HAPPENED. Why is this? OTHERS TOOK MY PLACE. They are bigger in gang hierarchies, and less damaged and sick. Full time.

Sadly, I was never invited to fly in and sit for lunch. If I was invited, “other Sarah’s” went because I never heard about it.

I’m actually a very retired child. One way to look at it is I did enough business in the 1970s to last my lifetime. I actually took on so many injuries being a “sea hag”…

Am I killing myself as a key person even for little people? I have to. Something is wrong if people are trying to use me like a gangster, or still connected daughter of one. Please don’t do this. I am so dead. I don’t even feel well enough to make phone calls to Honolulu, HI to see if anyone knows me from the 1970s. That was my town(city), not San Diego or Los Angeles. Without that town, I became a nobody and kind of lost. People admitted it a long time ago. Honestly, people who knew me back then… moved away to a variety of other cities, states and countries before the 1980s. Without them, I didn’t have my own big people to talk to.

I’ll say it again: I DO NOT have my own “big people” to talk to in person these days. I had some the 1970s and some in the 80s. I was mugged too much. Some say “Preakness Stakes” did it. I don’t know what that means now if I ever did know.

I’ve heard it said that people made me a “Mexico City Spielberg”. Not someone recognizable in the United States of America. That some people may be pretending things even though I’ve actually been SOLD OUT here.