Not certain how it looks to others, it looks to me that MANY PLACES I thought would be “my territory” in life are not at all. Occupied by Mexico people, some are white not all brown. Been this way all my life. Perhaps it was theirs before I was born. I wouldn’t know.
Some people have said because I turned down marrying a Mexican in my youth, that I was not allowed to marry anyone else. Others have said criminal minds married me to a gay man who won’t ever give me money. I don’t know the real truth. It could even be someone used me, created my life as a copy cat situation to someone elsewhere.
It is not beyond the ability of a gang of people to swap their own bigger people around to hide them, protect them, and place smaller people where they were. Me being a smaller person! I’m so small, people used to just push me around, injured me in public and the police department just watched. Did they know I was just a little Spielberg/Lucas person who was intentionally unemployed and not wealthy by others in L.A.?
Here in the U.S.A. it appears Mexicans have had an easier time going to school, helped to create small businesses, own homes, get health care and more. They actually LOOK MORE FUNDED THAN ME. It has taken decades for me to be able to get to the point of having enough money and protection to afford health insurance. I was actually BLOCKED from getting government assistance a lot in life. I was not able to get a credit card until around 2008. I was called a “terrorized artist” in my youth. Guess it was more truthful and long term than I realized.
What remains truth is, there have been many times I was somewhere and pushed away, threatened and Mexicans/white Mexicans stepped in. I simply never went back to those places. Some of them are actual department stores. I feel same happened up in Hollywood/professional entertainment work places in L.A. I may have been chased out of Washington D.C. this way also. Not certain it was supposed to happen that way or not. I’m not certain if a “Joshua” or a “Mike” arranged this. Those two names were known in the 1970s to order Mexicans/Mexico City people to do things.
Because this all happened, I am not well known at all in society. I’m not the one who was making deals, transacting with gangs and gang members. I was an INACTIVE ONE AT HOME honestly not doing much most days.