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A Baby that Became a Leader? Or is it Controllable Anarchy?

This may not have been what people expected. I feel that I did begin as a youth WGA assistant and people did open all kinds of doors to places and experiences… not connections for me back then. Because of the unique experiences and people I got to meet while young, I became unique myself and lead for a variety of “happenings”. Often though, I may have been more of a follower and someone just evolving than people realize. Sometimes it looked like I was the bold one who simply “went first” into things. I may have spoken first. I may have experienced something first. And that was how I lead others. I engaged the experiences first and then if there were followers… they saw how I did it and either tried the same or tried something different. That’s why I can safely say, I was not certain when I had the lead… I may have been following someone else myself or doing what others’ wished. The analogy is like bicyclists or cars on a long tour, and some freely took the lead and also gave it to someone else for a time along the way…sometimes the leading was significant, sometimes meaningless. Some people like bringing up the rear of the pack! Some are even LAZY and rather someone else do the hard focusing of studying the upcoming terrain.

I’ve heard the word “anarchy” applied to life in the United States of America. I tried to ARGUE about this a long time ago. However, now that I’ve lived enough and seen enough I know what the problem is. HUMAN TRAFFICKING actually has broken so many rules and laws within this nation to “solve people problems” it HONESTLY DOES LOOK LIKE ANARCHY. Which means “leaders” are not what they normally are anyway. People use them as they feel like, when they feel like it.

It may have been easier to allow me to lead on some things, maybe a lot of things a long time ago simply because others WANTED TO SEE WHAT I CAME UP WITH. Honestly. Adults watch to see how children do certain things… sometimes adults watch other adults come up with things also. It may not even be a laziness involved. Just a curiosity! Not all children want to try something out or be bold and take the first steps into something. I know I was daring and got used to it at times, and sometimes I was clearly tired and drugged and unaware of what was really going on.

THUS! The Baby may not know what is going on. Some people let babies just crawl and run around even laugh when they get into trouble which is BAD PARENTING, BAD LEADERSHIP, BAD PARTNERING.

“Mitch” Knows I Was Too Small, Too Underfunded in the 1970s

A “Mitch” took me to a “Donna” in Los Angeles,CA it appeared, to address “What could be…” And she was of gangster or gang member or mafia mind. I am not certain she was wealthy or not yet, however as an adult she clearly had contacts already and some money to use to help her get around and with gang members. I was not even allowed $5 to hand out to people for assistance. I was taken around to chat with people and “hand off” who I was over and over again. I gave my thoughts like an influencer, a member of Dreamworks without being official. I may have been labeled “Disney” to some, even though I was not hired there either.

I held “creative mind” and “Dreamworks mind” even “Disney Imagineering mind” in my youth for a while. I honestly had to go back home to a simple, non-Hollywood life though.

I was also in and out of La Jolla, CA however no one actually planned for me to stay. I believe one of the Lincoln’s even PAID PEOPLE to introduce me around and plan to send me back to Honolulu, HI long term. (1970s) Frankly, many migrants were begging and threatening people for work so much, they all ganged up and told people to NOT LET ME WORK as they wanted to “take my places” until I was old enough to work myself.

What happened is, some of those really “dumb looking projects” actually came out very well and the people already established in Hollywood simply continued on and did not create an office for me anywhere.

Thinking About a Little Something This Morning: I May Have Been the Original Kamala Harris Here is Why.

I could not be “Pamela Harris” who did become a known producer in Hollywood and retired. That woman GOT MUGGED herself, please don’t seek her out. In the 1970s I came up with, “Can I be ‘Kamala’ with ‘Pamela’?” I believe I had met her very briefly in Hollywood. The people she was with directed her and others to ANNOUNCE that I personally would NOT GET FUNDED in Hollywood with MAFIA MONEY. This was a very key happening! The gangsters obviously already had deals in L.A. for making content throughout the studio system.

The reason I bring this up… is because not long after I asked about being “Kamala” I was taken to a party in La Jolla, CA and to a brown skinned adult woman(in her 30s?) who looked gangster/political/executive business and I was TOLD, “This is HER, NOT YOU.” In other words, I was NOT allowed to even keep the nickname “Kamala Harris” a sidekick to “Pamela Harris” at a distance. The people who were wrangling me… may or may not have known that I knew Pamela back then. There were some very high level gangsters in La Jolla, CA in the 1970s from many countries, as well as Hollywood stars.

What I want people to know is: I DO NOT KNOW ANY OF THE KAMALA’s and am NOT CERTAIN who their people are in San Diego right now. Nor do I know HOW I WAS USED to help or moved out of the way a long time ago. Honestly, I DO NOT KNOW what the snoopers got or didn’t get from me personally.

I NEVER got to work with Pamela either. I’ve gotten to visit a long time ago she and some of her people, they looked very retired and far away from Hollywood.

I was very trafficked myself, and never got to know people well anywhere.

To Save Others, I Had to Die

A long time ago I was pressured under extreme duress to drop who I was, allow others to “be me” even in person. I didn’t have enough clout by myself. I had to lose who I was permanently or, I or others were at risk of being severely damaged and even mrdrd, dead and buried. As a child I didn’t know I’d have to do such a thing… and more than once.. likely to gang members from different gangs.

People over-hostaged me VERY IMPOLITELY in my youth. Forced me to be used against all kinds of people I didn’t even know. I had to abandon more than one of my own very real identities and groups of contacts. Sorry, not fixable.

What is even more extreme… on occasions I may have ONLY BEEN STANDING IN a SHORT TIME for someone unavailable. Someone planned to return. People still didn’t want me to look that important… as a temp or sub. I got mugged over and over again.

How I also Lost Identity in the 1970s

I forgot to mention this also: How many convicts used wives and children to “be me” for THEM on IPs? Many may still be very much connected to past IPs, IP ideas so their convict husbands are still connected even sitting in prison. And also, there may still be convict women with husbands and boyfriends on the outside connected to IPs on paperwork. There could be THOUSANDS of people who actually capitalized on IPs I helped spark as a child. Because I was NOT MAKING MONEY ON IPs… I was very much made an outsider, outcast, lone wolf.