I’m going to bring this up again. When I was a youth, a child still… I was told about a “Sam” who was going to work on my ideas for Hollywood.
Then I was taken to how many “Sam’s” before I was ten years old? I had asked if I could meet him. I actually wanted to work with him because I thought I was told he was just a little older than me. I was taken to places in San Diego and Los Angeles. Adults somewhat talked with me and then I also got beat up badly. I am not certain who’s homes I had visited. I met a variety of Sam’s… at least two were teenagers. One seemed to know who I was and wanted to protect me and “not be gay”… another had no idea who I was or why I was visiting.
I even met a Sam who is/was important to people as far north as Santa Barbara.
I know there are Sam’s I’ve come across who are important people or were. I was not allowed to get to know them. Not even spend a whole hour chatting. Possibly not even 10min out of our lives.
So I never knew with certainty which “Sam” was “my Sam” because I appear to have been taken to many over time and NONE are “mine”.
Now that I think of it… I was even taken to some FEMALES named, “Sam” or “Samantha” also. I doubt we exchanged more than a few words at most.
For my misdeed of typing unusual, out of character things on Twitter in 2020+!
The difficulty is I don’t have a prior criminal record, I have NOT committed a SIN or SINS, there was no follow up intended (mens rea) and I DID TAKE BACK ANYTHING OFFENSIVE WHEN ASKED ABOUT IT IN PERSON meaning I DID NOT PUSH A FURTHER AGENDA or statements or any actions for others to do.
For the courtrooms I did accept and acknowledge and ADMITTED A GUILTY PLEA that I had authentically “typed things out online”. They did not actually have me sign off on what I typed out specifically lined out(per post). I’ve actually signed off more on things for my dog at the grooming salons to be honest.
The offending Twitter posts I made that got me arrested in 2020 were removed before the year 2021. There was not a legal motion or requirement, I chose to remove the whole feed from online viewing. Essentially I admitted that I wrote something offensive to others and removed it from online. It was removed from public view. Eventually I deleted the account itself as a showing that I was NOT HOLDING ONTO THE CONTENT for any reason.
All this happened BEFORE 2022.
So I am laughing at the mom who told me felony! Because I wrote the courts over a year ago I would accept one just to get the case closed. I don’t think I earned even a misdemeanor, however I will accept it as an added punishment to the years of legal abuse I have taken from law enforcement in California. I’ll take on either label like a Disney collector’s pin. I’m good with God, and know it.
I actually helped created my very own identity early in life and it appears to have been sold many times over in different ways to men, women, children and all forms of trans. They may or may not have been legal in the U.S.A. I believe the original plan was for me to sit at home and not know many people. Due to the identity theft I was kidnapped and people had many false expectations for me. Instead of crying and yelling my brains out I AGREED to help people who actually had stolen it and their peoples. What has happened is I got very caught up in gangster and mafia problems and I learned things. I was a stand in, a visitor, not a full time work force person though. A mythical creature of many identities before I was an adult. As an individual, I stood in for adults and children in places who were out of country, in prison or not yet born. It allowed people to meet me and remember which child I was.
My health(physical, financial and mental) is NOT GOOD ENOUGH to continue to be a “good sport” and just fill in for people. I can’t make in person appearances as a “sea hag” or “convict producer” or “gangster’s child” or “mafia child” with a variety of borrowed clout to help move anything around.
There is another post I wrote about being Mugged at Firebaugh. I’ve been mugged elsewhere too. It got very out of hand in my youth. The gangs knew I didn’t belong around their tough high level people. So I came and went. I probably would have known the British Royalty better if I hadn’t been so caught up with the identity theft. They are high level people who were not beating me up.
I’m hoping to continue as a little writer, even do some very small public speaking someday. It may not happen because of the identity theft. Bigger people than me have used things I helped create with teams of others. They may not wish me to step up and look better than some of their current younger people.
Reminder that identity theft can be in whole or partial. People may have used my name(s) and likenesses in the U.S.A., past addresses, old friends, former family members, favorite locations, schools and more. Some may have been high level people in society knowingly using my name just on paperwork and knowing I was politely sitting at home, others may have been migrants who had no idea who I was and willing to end my life to have a U.S. identity based on forged documents and fake ID’s.
I may have neighbors waiting to harm me no matter what I write online or offline. It is not clear to me why they would other than I am not a hired writer* in the United States of America… where all citizens actually have a RIGHT OF FREE SPEECH here. We don’t have a right to encourage violence and illegal things.
*There are some people who get jealous quickly even of people who can write decently and are not professionally hired or paid. I am not even certain who would cause harm to a decent, unpaid, amateur writer? A professional writer? A gangster child who looks for things to be jealous of anywhere with anyone?
I feel there may be terrorists living nearby, the kind who are so fearless they even threaten law enforcement and are willing to combat even try to rob and slander active U.S. military(I am child of someone who was in the U.S. Armed Forces doing civilian-like things who died a long time ago).
Just posted some writing on Donald Trump and the ‘wind’ came alive about harming me. Honestly. Am not certain who is on it nor who they are calling upon to pay attention. I have been injured by gang members in the past and was not certain what was going on. Really had more than my “fair share” of taking blows in life. I’m supposed to be an average retired person now. My opinions are my own, and mostly try to be very objective and constructive in my expressions.
Why do I write stories that include animals and birds? Very easy to answer. Their actions speak more than words, and humans know what they mean to them. Most people who are literate enough to read a story or a news article have enough experience on Earth to understand simple gestures found in the animal world that can, but not always, illustrate a similar human gesture or meaning….without spoken language.
I actually like wild birds. They care for their own. Like humans, if something is wrong with them… they will not behave in a normal, respectable way.
Birds, like humans… can be dangerous. Doesn’t matter their size; no matter how beautiful their feathers, how agile they are in the sky, how well fed they are. Conversely, they can be the most endearing and respectable animal on Earth when NOT causing a problem somewhere.
I’ve been a target so long I forgot it was going on. This is why I have NO CAREER. I got ruthlessly snooped, then copy catted before I was even in grade school. I never became a professional at anything. I was forced to sit at home while others talked about MY IDEAS. Some people even capitalized off them. Some came after ME to pay them, even support their families while I had no job and they tried to get one with my ideas. Not a joke.
THE PROBLEM with never owning your own content is that someone else may be running around trying to sell it for themselves or other people. This is a BIG BAD NEWS THING for professional writers and they get protection by peers and professional guilds like The Writers Guild of America. I’m not a member, but I should be at this point.
SNOOPERS are as bad an idea as AI(artificial intelligence) for writers. They are basically saying, “No, we don’t want your writing–as yours.” This sounds very convenient to professionals who do not want to pay for a writer or a writer for paying a ghost writer.
What if a famous writer like Stephen King was known only a decade and then he “went into hiding or stopped writing to take up sports”? What if someone was forcing him NOT to work, NOT to earn, NOT to be attached to his own content? And during the time he is on hiatus or vacation… A NEW writer becomes famous? I believe this happens a lot in the entertainment business. Helping a new writer get started is one thing. Discovering a new talent sounds cool. But what if your favorite writer was forced to sit at home without a computer, no pen, nothing to write with or record their ideas and someone else sat with them day after day… writing notes they dictated and gave it all to someone else to be “famous with”? Would you approve of it? What if they were sitting at home and just finishing a new novel and were attacked, and the novel stolen and given to a different publisher even in another country? SNOOPERS steal things off computers. Hit people steal physical things from homes.
In support of WRITERS… we all, the world… every one of us… should BE HAPPY to pay a writer. Old ones, new ones, good ones… even some not-so-good ones. Not everyone is going to be great at it. In the United States, the Writers Guild is on strike as I write this. Yes, I am writing on my own. The professional writers who create content for screens are asking for content producers to renegotiate their contract work and give AI a backseat, maybe even toss it out of professional writing work. You can read more here >> WRITERS ON STRIKE
THIS SHOULD SCARE people that theft of content happens so regularly that it became acceptable along the way to law enforcement. What if the content was from a doctor? Or a scientist? And you, the injured goes to a specialist who has some of the ideas from a real doctor and pretends to know medicine–and charges you thousands of dollars over the year to heal you–and you never heal but they continue to make money?
This is why WE HAVE PROFESSIONAL people. We want the educated, approved, and insured to handle work that people pay for. We want regulation. We want honesty. I am behind the Writers Guild of America. I am not behind them IF they themselves or members sent criminal snoopers after me and others. It is a good time to COME CLEAN.
I wouldn’t have written about this when I was a youth. But now I’m 50 years old and I am sitting at home, a “never was”.
I like nature walks like these in the real world. Not every one can or should follow me though. We all need OUR OWN TIMELINES and paths in life. You can follow me for instance online, but you can do it when you feel like, even in the YEAR you feel like.
I may be returning to Mother Earth themes in the future of my online publishing. Just focusing on health, body, the lands we live on, cultivation, herbalism, organics, gardening(?) even thinking spiritually about people and living. I’ve dealt with the past a lot in recent years and I don’t want to keep going on it. I feel stalkers and snoopers needed to be MORE AWARE why I’m not their actual target. I’m not well monied nor well connected. I had to be disconnected a long time ago. I was replaced by at least 30 people! I discovered… there IS NO SPOT FOR ME to take, slip into, or waiting for me anywhere in Hollywood even outside of it for the town. So I’m staying retired from it.
Here on my blog site, I may continue to post broader ideas and themes. I humbly apologize if there were people expecting me to be a full Hollywood Spielberg. I’m not the same blood, nor same kind of people. I’m more a bohemian, mellow, easy going type of person. Not fancy, just kinda average.
What is the “dust to dust” reference? It means I spent much of my time in my earliest years outside under the sun and skies even barefoot by choice. I like the idea of remembering the Earth and being a part of IT. I don’t have be “one with the human race” or “one with the entertainment’s hive mind thinking and experience”. Being a part of the entertainment industry, even as a friend and not-employed… means a certain ongoing awareness and thoughtfulness. I NO LONGER NEED TO “hold fast” to it. I am returning to “dusty things”. I’m dead to entertainment, but not so much to our Mother Earth. I still have things to do for it. TBD!
No more major corporation contacts!
Hey people, I was too young to be a real corporation executive in the 1970s. I had connections back then to future high paying jobs, but I got HOSTAGED… even taken around the world for a time. Mainly in Hollywood, people were injuring me and asking for money. I BEGGED to be disconnected. I didn’t want to spend my early years in life being attacked. It looked bleak, like criminals just planned to injure me, get money and kill me. Family members were injured too. So WE HAD TO BE DISCONNECTED. There was NO WAY OUT. The companies I had connections to were young and some in start up, meaning no dividends or pay checks anyway. So no hostage money for criminals. I just got cut off completely–no more future job. There were years, decades I lived in low poverty as a result. The criminals involved just kept demanding money and were even stealing survival monies. Some in L.A. PRETENDED they stole my wealth and clout. My health was poor, I was interfered with on so many levels for years and years… but I guess the memo didn’t go out and around? Not connected. Not making any money from anything for years. I was on a stipend to be kept alive. I don’t think I even made a phone call to any company owners to wish happy birthday or anything my whole life. So this idea of threatening to harm me for hostage monies is pathetic. Has been for decades now. Criminals just get frustrated and punished.
What this looks like I was an ACE of cards in the 1970s that people used… got turned into an average “3”, not even a clever deuce(“2”). Looking at things now, it appears criminals have been in denial all these years. May be why I wasn’t allowed to just go have a normal average working middle class life. They may STILL be pretending I have value somehow.
I’ve been a disabled person. In the past they’ve paid doctors off to not allow a disability letter. I’m mobile these days, just not healthy enough for full time work even at a desk.
I started writing on Twitter in 2019 or so, then moved into blogging here, Facebook and Linkedin. I haven’t been writing in school much, and not much for letter writing to people. Over the years I got pretty good at emails and started writing Rosh 3 and some other stuff around 2010, registering with the Writers Guild West Online Registry. It’s been good practice! In my childhood a famous WGA writer told me he wrote at least 4 hours a day. It blew my mind then and I knew HOW FAR WAY from doing something like that I was.
Decades later… Here I am. I write something significant daily and have for a couple of years now.
What’s up? Weekend Filmmaker is a non-fiction Kindle ebook I am self-publishing and is in pre-sale now on Amazon.com with a release date coming on November 1. << VIEW A PREVIEW OF THE BOOK >>
Minimalist artwork for the cover of Weekend Filmmaker on Amazon.com’s Kindle.
This first edition is the shortest and has no illustrations except for the required cover which I created myself. Next edition should be out May or June 2023 with some illustrations and a chapter exploring more tech stuff.
And now I am musing… Kindle Vella. I almost started writing something yesterday but the spark just wasn’t complete. NOW *!! ZAP!! I am thinking I may start a serial for Alife Code*. It may not be good at all, but I want to try it out. Just write off the cuff and see what happens. At worst I could just get to the point I just remove it from Kindle Vella and shelf it at home digitally. Honestly, there has been some energy in my soul about Neuromancer, a novel by William Gibson and that universe. How do I return to some of that… I may not be skilled enough for something that good, but out of guilty pleasure I may attempt my milk-toast/dull/humble beginner version. At worst I’ll make Bill’s work look fargn’ epic!
*Alife Code is an IP of mine registered in 2021. I wrote a little bit of the original idea here. Alife Code on SarahSpielberg.org
That’s how I feel. People need to eat, learn, benefit, grow, produce, and reproduce in this world. If we can all try, and hope to be able find enough peace between us to keep our world turning, the air clean enough to breathe… enough food to feed us, enough communication and education to keep our minds wise and attentive to each other…
