There is a possibility I am Russian by some part of my DNA and/or adoption. Would you believe it if I told you this while I stand as a U.S. citizen, firmly on U.S. lands… possibly from birth? If I am Russian, am I a rogue, an outcast? Someone so stuck in the U.S.A.’s problems I joined all kinds of people from all over the world to love and hate this [censored] country? Yeah, I wonder about it myself. Honestly, I may have been adopted by some high level Russians in Los Angeles, CA in the 1970s and people just don’t talk about it.
It may or may not surprise you… and you… and you… that I was in the queen’s service at times, maybe more than even I knew about. Yes, Queen Elizabeth II and also the world’s mistress United States of America. I appear a subject of the Commonwealth* stationed in the United States to uphold truth and justice, even among criminals in the above and the underworlds. Above, below and so many levels of the laws of mankind.
And yet, France knew me also. With respect in my youth. I may have been with some of their people when I was called “U.N.” and far from home. Could be because of Canada on the northern U.S. border.
Not to mention all across Asia and Europe. I became a child of the world while young. Not through books, through travels. I may or may not have been connected with the powers of the Writers Guild of America as well as the Directors Guild of America. Hollywood and the professional entertainment world family had and has resources globally… funding and talented people. I did a lot of location scouting, even talent scouting on occasion with others.
I was cursed and blessed and it was a very tough way to live through so many situations. I believe some gangsters were sitting in New York City as well as other places gambling on people. I was young, and on a mission of discovery. I took and created challenges. It made me interesting back then.
Without getting into it, I want people to frame this in their minds. I may have been like a military person who was asked to do some extraordinary things under adverse conditions and I did them at random times for years, mostly in my youth. I was not someone with a weapon nor of the desire to destroy. In my adulthood I mostly appeared to be a discontinued model of a human being. Still feels this way.
It makes me a tired, damaged, not wealthy veteran of an era that has passed. I don’t think I OWE any one or any country any more of myself, and I don’t believe they even want it or need it. It is time to allow me peace. Please stop trying to use me for something.
I honestly believe my service to the U.S. White House and the Crown of England is done. I’m just older and retired out of so many tasks and to-dos. I don’t have any agendas or wish lists in hand for any one. Oh, except for me! I discovered that I can write and by doing so have re-discovered who I was by sharing who I’m not. It took me years to come to this page, for instance.
I may continue to write. It entertains me!
*Because I was only allowed to know English as a language of fluency, and did have a British accent when I was very young. It tells me I belonged to an English speaking country, not just the U.S.A. which is and has been English/Mexican/Spanish.
The original event according to history appears to be Incan slaves sent to meet incoming pilgrims from Europe in the northern east coast of the Americas. They helped the newcomers with shelter and food. They ate together in the same spaces, possibly at the same tables.
All these centuries later… it is about family and friends gathering at homes and dinner places. Some get along well, some don’t. I’m wishing for peace today in the United States of America. A day to avoid conflicts and conflagrations. Just a “day of caring for each other”. Share your places, your food, your stories even clothing if lacking. A day without hate and contempt. It’s not a religious holiday, though it appears religiously enjoyed annually here!
As I write this, there is a historical debate going on. It is between Kamala Harris a black or Indian woman and Donald Trump very white man*. They are after the highest seat in United States of America politics. I’ve heard the debate is not going well. I watched a couple of minutes… looked great! Here’s why.
They are actually listening to what each other is saying and coming up with their own answers. Some answers may be very old and very repeated, some are not at all, right? What matters is that are NOT matching eye to eye at all, they are very different people.
What may be interesting to some people is that over one hundred years ago… any colored skin person in the United States appeared to be below white people no matter how bad or evil they were. And people KNEW this was a mistake.
It has taken so long for people to make some corrections in the NATURE of this country.
I don’t want to comment on the debate itself. I feel it is wrong to do so. I want to sit back and see what happens. WHO actually gets the Oval Office. Can you imagine? If Kamala wins, this is a complete FLIP of the “old United States”. If Donald wins, I am not certain of our future path. He has demonstrated a very negative attitude from pre-1900s.
What worries me is this is about a top seat, a very important seat. I am not convinced Kamala owns it. Donald may come out above her because of his longer history with people globally. He can connect with the “white world” better than Kamala can. She is a strong force. So is he.
What could happen is she stays in politics one way or another. That would still be a win. If she gets the big office, fine. If she doesn’t fine. If Donald gets is and brings more of the pre-1900s ethos and mentality… the U.S.A. still has some growing to do and may have to run yet more “colored” people toward the presidential seat(s). Not give up, please. The world is round-enough to be including so many colors globally that “white” is almost a minority.
*COLORS??? Oh I feel terrible and not. Humans still need to be able to make associations for negative and positive thinking. We DO still have to speak of history by way of witnessing “whites” and “colors”. These are superficial ways of knowing a person. It does point at DNA and history. Be educated when you think of “look” to help define a person. This is ONLY THE BEGINNING of the conversation about someone. Average knowledge is working off very simple old history. Educated knowledge… is knowing about the individual and who they know and who knows them and WHAT THEY THEMSELVES have done in history. Cool, huh?
I used to be more outspoken in public places about political things… issues, people, places, events. It may disappoint people that I am not back at it. Please note I have been badly attacked by gang members in the past and my jaw is actually not 100% right now. Old injury.
