Who do not have realistic expectations of me personally! I was not allowed to have a husband or a long term job and career with earnings. I was mostly a thrown away person who people barely spoke with most of these decades.
I was not like a sponsored athlete that people took good care of so I could do well in the sport and make money to share.
Worse, my back and neck have been broken in front of people. Not figuratively. And that happened before I was a teenager. The adults who did it said out loud they, “No longer want money from this woman.” And it could be the hit people they had hired, or mafia they had spoken to thought I was the target before then.
L.A. courts has a hold on me, much too long. Looks pre-planned, however I was not reminded or brought up to speed, or even informed properly of what it all is. The biggest problem is I have been a pure “criminal case”… NOT a “big Steven” who is mafia connected that can just talk to people… anyone… in L.A. As I child I did somewhat, I can’t do this as a very diminished adult.
I may need even some Mexican(Mexico City?) powers to step in to release me from L.A. I can’t actually do anything for anyone. I’m too smashed down, ruined, disconnected. I shouldn’t be hostaged for anything as I was not authentically connected to big enough money. My own people are not big now if they ever were. They may have been falsely boosted like I was at times. We were able to step up and mediate with people. Even small leadership things. Mostly I’ve lived a quiet life at home, unaware and uninformed about a whole lot of things.
I’m not the one who is best KEY for the L.A. court houses. I have a feeling the bigger people paid people off to keep them out and away, and yet they would be ideal to help problems. I may have been a virtual leadership person for migrants a long time ago, but as such I can’t do a thing in person at all. There are many migrants with more clout than me!
For me to speak up in person, in public places… I would have needed a team of people with me and I’ve had none. No one from any big companies has come to stand beside me to talk with others in L.A. Last time it really happened was in my youth!
I can’t just “fix something” for people. I need to talk with others in charge of things. Have to be aware of what is actually going on. I personally would not have the powers to make changes. I’d have to work with others in a democracy.
Likely it would take a group of people to fix anything for a group of people.
Realizing others may be saying this also.
* “Politician” does not have to be an elected and hired city or state public servant, could be just someone well known to many people.
After writing this out, I realize this is a very opinionated piece. Likely you have a better way of explaining this concept to your own people and self.
This is a really big topic for a group, community even just a lone individual. Someone can spend years thinking about it. What I wish to write about is INDIVIDUALITY–the path an individual takes in life. Since this is not a book, only a single blog post I’ll just touch on it.
Each human being is different. We all are given people to chat with, learn about, be like or not be like. Each one of us makes over 100 decisions in a single day about how we do it. Because of this, each one of us very different no matter what.
Some people try to predict a person’s path in life, even use educated guesses, planning too. What they cannot fully predict are the variety of forces that come upon that person in their life. These can be simple things to complicated influences.
Not everything is at it appears. I learned this. There are all kinds of “face values” that people can easily see, and so many more people can’t. There are obvious things going on, and not so obvious going on within a lifetime of one person.
Influencing others is actually a very natural way of human communication. It is communication. Some do it by example, some do it by explanation, some do it by instruction… and there is the toughest way which is BY FORCE and THREAT, COERCSION. “Being influenced” can cause changes in someone’s hour, day, month, year… lifetime. And most of us are influenced! Reality is, we ARE ALL INFLUENCED. We accept it willingly most of the time. It is what we use the influences for that makes us so individual.
Training is a form of influence. A very different topic. What can be said is, most of us self-train, self-direct and make choices in life.
Choices, even choosing not to make one are what gives us a path in life.
Purpose is what keeps us going. A lot of our choices form our purpose and our purpose(s) form our choices. We all have a “big account” in our soul from which to draw meaning(s). Makes us human. Makes us constant decision makers. My experience in life has shown me it is very human to make choices.
Yeah so there was this young dude or dudette… friends, family, even strangers came to them asking for money. This person never really asked if they had more than them or not. But decided: “Well, how should I solve this problem?”
They used their good mind and said, “Hey look… I have an idea to help us all make money!”
The group asking for money: “Great! What is it?”
The dude or dudette: “Let’s grow a big tree of fruit! We can eat some and sell some. We’ll always have some food to eat, share and make some money off of.”
Group: “Great! Don’t move.” Then they clobber the dude or dudette… take them to another town, and abandon them there.
Back at the original town, they grow a big tree and over the years it helped all kinds of people, locals and visitors. People even posed by it for photos every so often. They sold tshirts, had a fruit stand for a while, then they created a farmers market and the community thrived.. until there was no more water. They had planted orchards of different trees and then… also… the demand dropped as supply became too great. They started throwing out fruits almost daily.
One day someone says, “Hey, what about the dude or dudette? Shouldn’t we bring them back and give them some fruit?”
Group: “No, just throw away the surplus.”
“We clobbered Sarah.” – the ‘wind’ “We are dead meat.” – the ‘wind’
