Time is Up! (Using me as a human being)

A long time ago, political people were actually SELLING ME in a trafficking way to all kinds of people I never even got to know. Working and non-working people were snooping my devices and pretending all kinds of a variety of things for in-person appearances as well as far distant virtual me. It was MUCH EASIER TO DO BEFORE I WAS AN ADULT. It was actually supposed to end by the time I was 15 years old.

Many are pretending too much right now. I can sense it. It helped them decades ago, however now all kinds of things have expired. Working people have retired, investors left the country or moved to sponsor others’ ideas. I NEVER took on a full time management position at any company other than me as a solo digital artist under my own small banner. I mostly consulted and just visited socially with people. All my “real job positions” potentially possible were SOLD OUT to all kinds of people. I must have been really dreaming to think I’d get to know all them! I hear many were young people in their first jobs. Some were long term CEO positions. Many may have pretended I was a distant sister, cousin, daughter even wife! I can’t do this now. I really could not do it well decades ago.

So much time has passed… how many even knew the KEY NAME I was using in the 1970s that helped create paperwork in a variety of cities and countries? I don’t think most know now, if they ever did learn about it. This name here is a legal PEN NAME. It was not a key name I used in the 1970s. I am aware other women have used this name in Los Angeles, CA since the 1970s also. It was one of the names I also used. As a youth, I was able to use a variety of names and met all kinds of people who may have used them also: Men, Women, Trans, Children too.

I’m actually at home a lot these days. I’m older and I do not have many friends. I don’t mind having a quiet life. What is bothering me is that people who have been claiming things may be very frustrated that I do not match their claims. This is not my fault. Let me remind you all that there have been some VERY AMAZING gangsters and mafia people in big cities who have used names I’ve used. THEY are the REAL KEY people. I’m a “child” or “baby” to the big ones. I am not so connected that I can call them or email. We are very separated, very different lives.

What remains is my “influencer” status with people who have known me. I am not a gang leadership person. I am not a leader at a company. Just a local San Diego, California, USA influential person of the 1970s and 80s(during those decades I visited California from Hawaii). I haven’t been active most of my life. I only really got some steam going between 2019 and now because I discovered that I was being snooped, stalked by strangers and I had to figure out what it was they thought was going on. I’ve mostly been just an online presence in text… writings, not even video blogging.

I’ve had a lot of memory loss due to gang attacks when I was a lot younger. People didn’t want me involved in their lives and work. It made sense to me also, not the attacks… just staying away from them and their circles of contacts. The memory loss really messed up my life. I could not influence or be influenced. Too injured. So I’m back doing a mild influencer thing as a pastime. I don’t have big ambitions, no big plans.

WHO AM I? I small town influencer with a presence on the internet. I am not wealthy, not well connected, no workplace job. It’s just a pastime to write.

I’ve already given up most of my life for many others. My body and soul are actually tired too.