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The San Diego Spielberg Team that was Announced in the Late 1970s or Early 1980s…

Actually are the Scotts and their associates. Devin and Jeanne Scott of American Dream Cinema. I was placed on board their vessel Scott’s Landing and it was announced with me standing present to what appeared to be local San Diegan gang and political leadership people, including Wally Schlotter. I was not a legal adult until many years after that and was not included in the mix, by the way. They knew I was returning to Hawaii. Didn’t announce me and what I was to be doing in the present or future.

Devin Scott, a known local film director in San Diego, CA has a green sports car. In recent years I finally was able to obtain a white compact one, similar to one of my Japanese Yakuza fathers in Hawaii once drove. I want people to know, even if I was not born Japanese, I may have been partially raised by their people (through their connections, not directly). Likely Democrats in 1970s Hawaii who may or may not have stayed in the United States. More profound is I was also a Republican through my false husbands in California. And I was also Independent possibly through very established politicians on the east coast of the United States.

I told people in the 1970s that I’d try to help people make money. I was not the funding source itself. People tried to make me look like it though. My clout was through working well connected politicians not patrons of the arts. I got sabotaged by greedy and jealous peoples. Whatever money making work I could have gotten I was mugged for it and forced to stay home injured and drugged so I forgot what happened. I was not allowed to be a player, or a gang member. I was labeled a “sister” and “wife” to stay out of things.

Really got overwhelmed while young, by bigger people than me. I accept this. Am not trying to push back at all. People need to know what happened though. Why I am not well connected and very isolated and a one-off, single person on my own most of the time. A loner. Because of my smallness, mugged self and low funding… I was never able to return in person to local politicians and their people in higher places. I’ve stayed far away, just living a messed up minimal life.

I’ve been slandered about for decades. That’s why when I show up places people are not certain who I even am. My fake relatives don’t know me either. They think they do, but mostly they know their fellow gang members not me at all. Would it surprise you.. and you… or you… to know that possibly if I showed up at the United Nations or more than one country’s leadership palace outside of the United States of America I would be recognized correctly? They would likely all admit I am retired from any commitments and duties I once had a long time ago. That I now look like an average citizen again.

Migrant Leadership in the United States of America? Little Me?

I was caught up with USC (University Southern California) people in the 1970s also. Filmmakers, political young adults. This is never spoken of. I visited the USC campus many times before I was 8 years old. Some thought I’d go there eventually as a college student and get a career with their alumni. It appears a mafia sold me out and I was banned from the campus instead.

I attended a film location scout that involved the United Nations and propaganda. It appeared that I was going to be in the film itself. There was some major conflict involving my identity. Looks like real Russian(?) people were ANGRY that I was a bright child with ideas YET NOT ACTUALLY RUSSIAN. So they told me to “go stand with the United States people” and I did. That actor(?) told me, “We are a country in debt. It may never change. You are a U.S. born child and we want you to be a migrant leadership person.” I thought it was for the movie. Looks like I got caught up very badly with professional entertainment migrants as well as contractor/builders and it is/was VERY REAL all these decades.

Migrant meetings? I was TOLD that is all I had to do, is show up for some migrant meetings. As a youth, I was not certain what that all meant. It appears… I’ve actually been human trafficked all these years and YET DO NOT KNOW ANYONE for real. I don’t have a list of migrants or their leaders to be in contact with. People simply put me on a bus now and then and they made ME LOOK LIKE A MIGRANT. I didn’t speak with people. I was like a mascot, a pet, a toy, a flag bearer who could not actually do much for anyone and my own funding was very low like a migrant worker who came over a border into the U.S.A. So I got kidnapped and trafficked and somehow migrants were told to follow me around (1970s and 80s)? I basically was taken places, and the workers followed and they did all the talking and deal-making and I got MUGGED over and over again. Silenced.

I’m not as bad off these days, however I’m still not a leadership person with money to hire people. I still do not have a contact list of leaders and workers from any company or organization. Nothing. I believe I am very done with people as I was TOLD to take “retirement age” at 50 years old if I do not have a contract. I do not have a contract for or from others. I am just living a very simple boring life. No one has asked for me to step up and speak with a group. The last time that happened for real was in my youth. I’ve been attacked by gang members by force and injury as well as druggings–just before I was to speak anywhere–even in a high school classroom. So public speaking was out for me and has been for decades. Very real gang leaders likely knew I couldn’t handle managing migrant workers. They may have sabotaged me from any of the related duties just so the migrant workers sought other leaders who can handle or manage them.

This is yet another online writing I had not planned on. Am hoping that coming clean on what I know about helps people MOVE ON FROM ME and seek help and leadership from those who are far more enabled.

Identity Theft is Real

I actually helped created my very own identity early in life and it appears to have been sold many times over in different ways to men, women, children and all forms of trans. They may or may not have been legal in the U.S.A. I believe the original plan was for me to sit at home and not know many people. Due to the identity theft I was kidnapped and people had many false expectations for me. Instead of crying and yelling my brains out I AGREED to help people who actually had stolen it and their peoples. What has happened is I got very caught up in gangster and mafia problems and I learned things. I was a stand in, a visitor, not a full time work force person though. A mythical creature of many identities before I was an adult. As an individual, I stood in for adults and children in places who were out of country, in prison or not yet born. It allowed people to meet me and remember which child I was.

My health(physical, financial and mental) is NOT GOOD ENOUGH to continue to be a “good sport” and just fill in for people. I can’t make in person appearances as a “sea hag” or “convict producer” or “gangster’s child” or “mafia child” with a variety of borrowed clout to help move anything around.

There is another post I wrote about being Mugged at Firebaugh. I’ve been mugged elsewhere too. It got very out of hand in my youth. The gangs knew I didn’t belong around their tough high level people. So I came and went. I probably would have known the British Royalty better if I hadn’t been so caught up with the identity theft. They are high level people who were not beating me up.

I’m hoping to continue as a little writer, even do some very small public speaking someday. It may not happen because of the identity theft. Bigger people than me have used things I helped create with teams of others. They may not wish me to step up and look better than some of their current younger people.

Reminder that identity theft can be in whole or partial. People may have used my name(s) and likenesses in the U.S.A., past addresses, old friends, former family members, favorite locations, schools and more. Some may have been high level people in society knowingly using my name just on paperwork and knowing I was politely sitting at home, others may have been migrants who had no idea who I was and willing to end my life to have a U.S. identity based on forged documents and fake ID’s.

Hello Stranger

Wish everyone to know, it may have been planned that I not know too many people overall in my life. I humbly apologize again if I am not certain who you are and you have known me a long time. We may have gotten through some tough times together and given each other mutual assistance when together or far apart. There have been all kinds of gang and gang member conflicts and I never had full information on them all. Looks like even more than one country was claiming things with me and others, and very possible they sponsored some things we were involved in. Same goes for companies within and outside the United States of America where I reside.

If you are reading this and have known me since my first years of life, I want to bless you for putting up with me and what I had to go through! I may have challenged and taunted others while young, not thinking how stuck I’d be for life nor what was really going on. It may have been in my mind there would be more conversations and opportunities to make broader adjustments.

Grateful to so many who may have had to “step in” and fix things for me and others. You apparently were given enough power and clout to do it. I may or may not have been on your team. Appears I was on a big team that included many gangs and companies. Very early on it occurred to me just to participate well whenever and where ever I was included. It wasn’t always clear what people needed and wanted of me. Also sometimes more than one gang was present and I looked caught between them. I was often mislabeled, even intentionally not recognized. Expectations of me have been all over the map! For instance: Was I standing in for a nice or grumpy person, someone who is smart or stupid intentionally or was I present, in person as my self and did people know what it meant?

I look like a stranger and friend to many. Not certain I can change this. Probably not. I can hope we can all get along politely now since it will only be socializing, not work related if I see you, any of you. Retired from so many things and people I may never see again. Did you know it was DISNEY management level people(or someone paid them to) who asked me to take retirement age at 50 decades ago? Likely because whatever deal people gave me in life could not be changed to accommodate me as a real elder, senior aged person. I was kept a “baby” to gangsters and mafia. Not a good thing for workplaces so I’ve had to stay out of them mostly. Any big person clout I had was based on a permission system by the people in control and was very situational and temporary. Never had a list of who is who. Ended up just trying to be a politician-minded person and do what I could for whatever I was given.

Was I your weakest link? Someone people mostly did not know, only brought around on rare occasions? Very possible. And why I was not allowed to get to know many who I visited. May have mostly been given migrant workers and employees of companies instead of the actual management people because my visits were so short. Jumped in, did what was needed and was gone again. I’ve crossed paths with management/leadership people at times however there just wasn’t much to say. I was staying small, not social climbing.

Broken pencils and broken metal. This is how this goes: a broken pencil is like a broken connection between people or peoples. Broken metal, in my own description is a connection so badly used it began as a sturdy force and bent over and over that it broke because the metal weakened. It could have held if supported and cared for, instead it was overloaded and ruined.

Connected by vapor. That’s just a very weak connection that if not rekindled, reminded and enforced will disappear. It could also be a very fake connection. Also means there is NO WRITTEN CONTRACT, meaning NOT LEGALLY ENFORCEABLE. I currently have no contracts with anyone.

Thin Sky

I’m watching the news on social media about hurricane Helene and musing about the storm surging that is projected. Then I realize over the past few months there are yet again record breaking storms happening around our planet. Between violent rain storms and floods there are extreme heat waves. How does this compare to past history of the planet and what’s coming in the future? I’m going to save some time and copy/paste some of my own social media posts. They are opinions and observations. Just presenting them for a shared muse.

From Weather Nation,

THE MOON has a gravity pull on the Earth. It is actually MOVING WATER ON IT when it gets close enough. It is actually causing STORMS from the cooling and heating in places due to water movements. It is more complicated, however it gives you AN IDEA why there are surges in water levels.

Maybe I missed this lesson in school while I was “doing other things”. THE MOON IS CHANGING the Earth every second. If what I learned of the major land masses is truth… the gravity holding the moon and the moon’s own gravity from its own spin/path is actually moving the major land masses. In some places it crushes together to form mountains, in other places it is s-t-r-e-t-c-h-e-d out… getting flatter, maybe even lower in elevation. It has caused the actual oceans and sea depths to change. The water itself is pulled and pushed… causing land changes also. Most of it is very slow it takes thousands of years. Major storms change the speed of change temporarily. I learned things over my lifetime anyway.

Earth is getting too hot. This is why we are getting such violent storms everywhere on planet Earth. #opinion #theory If the hottest areas on Earth get hotter over time, likely we’ll continue to get escalating violent storms over the centuries. It won’t matter if the poles lose all their ice or not.

We probably need more vegetation, plants and trees on Earth. Too much of the land is not using the sun’s energy correctly, efficiently. We may have honestly replaced too much of green lands with cement and asphalt. It may have tipped things beyond self-repair on Earth. #opinion Without enough oxygen, it is possible we have compromised the atmosphere itself. The air is NOT AS DENSE and protective of everything under it, in it.

Engineers in #aerospace #engineering could probably remark on the sky’s density now compared to 1950s. Planes and rockets have to fly at high altitudes. Density affects the efficiency of what flies through the air.

Early land explorers used to climb the highest mountains without an oxygen bottle or threat of running out of oxygen during times of extreme stress and exertion. They were likely people in very good shape to begin with, not city slickers on a tour though. It is possible even at mountain peaks the air is thinner than it was 100 years ago.

IF THE SKY IS THINNER than 50 years ago, 100 years ago, 1000 years ago. It may be WHY it is SO EASY* for the MOON to affect the Earth and water itself. The actual combined weight of the air is LESS. Not holding the Earth together like it was. #thin #sky #theory #air #oxygen #density *easier than back in time

Not to scare people… however… current trend of the Earth and Moon relationship could eventually just tear apart the surface of Earth and debatable how it will reset itself. Over 1000s-10,000s of years. “living underground” may work for a time. The lack of humanity on the surface and lack of its living and workspaces could allow for a new build up of oxygen to thicken the sky again and potentially mellow the moon’s damaging pulls and pushes. I have a hunch vegetation will take hold in the exit of humanity. By design it creates oxygen.

Alternatively, we could MAKE CERTAIN THE EARTH HAS BETTER VEGETATION COVERAGE. Even over everything we’ve built. We likely will have to slow the population growth.

Just read that #condensation actually happens sooner with MORE than LESS pressure. Something to think about regarding water, clouds and ice.

I can CONFIRM I felt lighter weight in desert terrain than around rain forests. I actually FELT THE WEIGHT of the sky in the wet tropics. I had trouble breathing the air. I also felt lightheaded far from the tropics after I was used to them like something was missing.

“Land makes human… human takes land. Land overtakes human… it lives again.”

Broken Nails

Is being said on the ‘wind’. It means connections are broken, people are UNCONNECTED.

I have a feeling because I was a “baby” various gang contacts dumped and dropped me as “useful” to them very early in my life. Too many people needed money! THEN people planned to help me have money… AND THEN… OVERSOLD me and anything I owned. Here I am decades into my life and I’m being snooped as a money source and I cannot afford my own life easily!

Ultimately, I am a victim of identity theft. It means I can’t do much no matter what… and the people using my identity may also be limited… UNLESS… they only used my name(s) as nicknames, not trying to use my identity paperwork to stay in the U.S.

“Forced to be a baby.” – the ‘wind’

Dust to Dust, Back to Earth

I like nature walks like these in the real world. Not every one can or should follow me though. We all need OUR OWN TIMELINES and paths in life. You can follow me for instance online, but you can do it when you feel like, even in the YEAR you feel like.

I may be returning to Mother Earth themes in the future of my online publishing. Just focusing on health, body, the lands we live on, cultivation, herbalism, organics, gardening(?) even thinking spiritually about people and living. I’ve dealt with the past a lot in recent years and I don’t want to keep going on it. I feel stalkers and snoopers needed to be MORE AWARE why I’m not their actual target. I’m not well monied nor well connected. I had to be disconnected a long time ago. I was replaced by at least 30 people! I discovered… there IS NO SPOT FOR ME to take, slip into, or waiting for me anywhere in Hollywood even outside of it for the town. So I’m staying retired from it.

Here on my blog site, I may continue to post broader ideas and themes. I humbly apologize if there were people expecting me to be a full Hollywood Spielberg. I’m not the same blood, nor same kind of people. I’m more a bohemian, mellow, easy going type of person. Not fancy, just kinda average.

What is the “dust to dust” reference? It means I spent much of my time in my earliest years outside under the sun and skies even barefoot by choice. I like the idea of remembering the Earth and being a part of IT. I don’t have be “one with the human race” or “one with the entertainment’s hive mind thinking and experience”. Being a part of the entertainment industry, even as a friend and not-employed… means a certain ongoing awareness and thoughtfulness. I NO LONGER NEED TO “hold fast” to it. I am returning to “dusty things”. I’m dead to entertainment, but not so much to our Mother Earth. I still have things to do for it. TBD!

No more major corporation contacts!

Hey people, I was too young to be a real corporation executive in the 1970s. I had connections back then to future high paying jobs, but I got HOSTAGED… even taken around the world for a time. Mainly in Hollywood, people were injuring me and asking for money. I BEGGED to be disconnected. I didn’t want to spend my early years in life being attacked. It looked bleak, like criminals just planned to injure me, get money and kill me. Family members were injured too. So WE HAD TO BE DISCONNECTED. There was NO WAY OUT. The companies I had connections to were young and some in start up, meaning no dividends or pay checks anyway. So no hostage money for criminals. I just got cut off completely–no more future job. There were years, decades I lived in low poverty as a result. The criminals involved just kept demanding money and were even stealing survival monies. Some in L.A. PRETENDED they stole my wealth and clout. My health was poor, I was interfered with on so many levels for years and years… but I guess the memo didn’t go out and around? Not connected. Not making any money from anything for years. I was on a stipend to be kept alive. I don’t think I even made a phone call to any company owners to wish happy birthday or anything my whole life. So this idea of threatening to harm me for hostage monies is pathetic. Has been for decades now. Criminals just get frustrated and punished.

What this looks like I was an ACE of cards in the 1970s that people used… got turned into an average “3”, not even a clever deuce(“2”). Looking at things now, it appears criminals have been in denial all these years. May be why I wasn’t allowed to just go have a normal average working middle class life. They may STILL be pretending I have value somehow.

I’ve been a disabled person. In the past they’ve paid doctors off to not allow a disability letter. I’m mobile these days, just not healthy enough for full time work even at a desk.

Being a Spirit Walker

“Leave nothing but footprints, take nothing but pictures, kill nothing but time…” (even then, must ‘time’ be killed or just ignored?)

This still is a mantra when I am around nature. I actually prefer the peace of nature than the metal and concrete of big cities. Okay? I am not “your Donna”. I am a spirit walker who will speak to people. That’s all I really was. Still am really. People have disrupted my thinking and spirituality and WALKING since my earliest days on Earth outside of the womb. I’m not sure if I’m supposed to be angry or just irritated… or wondering… why is this?

I found this image without a copyright online. Please contact me if it is yours.

Clever Elf (this one) is Retired from Hollywood’s Workshop

What did I just retire from this year?

Helping create projects and products for people to work on. That’s the best way to explain it. To big people, I probably just looked like a small clever elf who had some ideas they used. They want me done so they can chat with other “elves” and “helpers” now. So I’m exiting the “Hollywood workshop”.

It isn’t clear to me who made me a “clever elf” for Hollywood/Bollywood people. It does appear I stayed an “artist child” who visited and was not employed, didn’t have a career with the entertainment capital of the U.S. (not sure if it is world or not now).

I can’t be an “ideation expert” for others. I wasn’t actually hired for it, just used. I was used as a stand in for others too I guess. I am done now though.

There are probably women too, many of them! I personally am not needed. Others have taken my place in person most of the time anyway. Best wishes to you all!

a Native American Nation Within United States Borders

Native Americans in Washington D.C. (image from Washington Post)

Today is November 26th, 2021 and it is Native American Heritage Day which has been an annual event since 2009 when Barack Obama signed it in. To the few who knew me, I was very behind this happening. I know not all presidents wanted to take that leap of recognition or were pressed not to. I’m glad it finally got done and we can now celebrate it! I say “now” because it is clear that all these hundreds of years we haven’t thanked the original owners of “the table” newcomers to the Americas were fed at. The Native American Indians were PROVIDERS to people in the early days. They gave advice in the new world. They were not as sophisticated and could not protect themselves from “old world criminals” and their peoples were cornered and pushed aside. And that is the nice way of putting it.

I grew up in the United States, in the Hawaiian Islands far from Washington D.C. but I was close to political students and teachers. Some professional politicians were in and out of our circles through the years. It just kept me aware and paying attention as I tried to get through the pains of childhood and teenage years. I DID NOT get formal U.S. studies in high school like I would have liked. I was moved around to different schools and my U.S. history may look weaker than some new U.S. citizens! I’ve studied it over the years though in spite of missing out on formal studies in school. The school of life is vibrant and interesting if you open yourself to it, and it allows you to learn more perspectives from the beginning instead of being programming in classes taught by a few teachers with strict curricula. I’ve tried to be opinionated only when I felt I had enough knowledge to make an opinion known. Otherwise I remained silent until I had time to review or think about it more. This has lead me to be specific in my writing, but also I too have become vibrant in thinking and writing. I am a product of the learning I gave myself. My words are not based on a single movie, narrative or documentary. It’s a culmination of decades of picking up pieces and analyzing them. Those pieces are everything from speaking with people in person, to films, text books, magazines, blogs, reading and watching the news and more. They are MY PIECES and MY OPINIONS that result.

Here is what I am thinking. Just an idea. I haven’t even researched if this would be popular or not.

How about two native nations in the United States?

Two? You may ask. Yes. Native American Indian and Hawaiian. Granted the Eskimos shouldn’t be forgotten either, perhaps they can join the Indian nation or be allowed to be the Eskimo Nation?

Native Hawaiians marching in Honolulu, Hawaii

This is what comes to mind. The Hawaiians were in Hawaii before the old world explorers dropped in and changed things. The American Indians were there before the same. It is fair, very fair to call them the original and native peoples. I propose they each have their own nation within the U.S. borders and be better represented legally in Washington D.C. and in the media. I truly do not feel they are getting enough respect day to day. They should be better known to the mass audience, even global. I’m not saying these nations within a nation should be more powerful than the U.S. government, but I believe our country should know them better. If this means improving their lives so they look better, maybe we should be doing this. Otherwise the old world came to the lands of the Americas and terrorized what they found and that’s all it was. No, that was not meant to be a pleasant sentence and statement. It’s my sprung-finger-thwack on some heads of people reading this. I’m waking up to this too.

Image from Morning Starr

Two Native Nations (perhaps three)
This is based on geography and DNA pools.

Native American Indian Nation
Native Hawaiian Nation
Eskimo Nation