I figured out what is going wrong. People knew it may get VERY STUPID later and we are in the later, way later.
THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT. I do not have access or use of her contacts. And WHO SHE IS has changed since the 1970s.
It got screwed up very badly in the 1970s. Small men from Russia were using me and kept asking for “Kamala” someone CREATED even though I was in front of them and present for tasks FOR PREVIS… I was also learning PRIMETIME. It may have been the Republican and Democratic parties in severe conflict with me. They actually DID LIKE ME for work for the White House. NEITHER wanted to adopt me though.
For a while I stood in as a “future Kamala” both the legitmate looking society famous one as well as a criminal me person.
Some people may have held onto ME as a Spielberg and as a Kamala person long term without telling other people what was going on. INCLUDING ME. IT HAS TO DO WITH MONEY. I became a Hollywood Kamala for her people to invest and make money DECADES AGO.
I’m verifiably RETIRED from PREVIS work for big people. I don’t have their people to TALK WITH REGULARLY about what is going on. Inside information is very key. I’m not a political assistant for the White House. They have MANY of those people ACTIVE and on a PAYROLL. They don’t all sit in Washington, D.C. They are scattered around the world. I have NO INSTRUCTIONS about helping any specific candidate nor contact list of who I need to know right now. I am in a very dead zone. Nothing going on.
I am NOT ADOPTED by any politician or political party. People do know who I am. It is a choice they have made and I fully accept it. I’ve noted I am NOT under a contract and am NOT WORKING. I’m not pretending to be previs or in control of anything. I have agreed, am RETIRED in nature. Can’t fix this by myself! Someone would HAVE TO HIRE ME to make me unretired.
It may interest some people to know that a “bigger me” person, more than one were staff at QualComm in its earliest life. In the 1980s, some even thought I worked there and made a lot of money. It was not me. I may have actually gone places they were also visiting at the same time and didn’t know it.
I was not planning on writing about it here on my blog site. Since I need people to release me from any future planning and work with absolute certainty… “Lori Nelson” was the one I was supposed to swap with in reality, not in a fantasy zone–for real work in Los Angeles, CA and beyond. What happened is she became invaluable and the gangs had already disconnected, cancelled me very badly so they helped she and people she worked with to keep going, keep advancing. They are the ones also known for working with Universal Pictures and many other companies, including Paramount Pictures, Amblin, Inc. as well as Dreamworks. REAL PEOPLE. Not imagined, not migrant workers. The migrants may disagree since many pretended to swap with me for all kinds of work in the entertainment business. It is not Lori’s fault that I never had a career in Hollywood. Much bigger people are/were in control including very real politicians.
It may very well be the politicians(small through big ones) assumed I’d be sitting at home and occasionally visiting political locations. I basically never had a big enough net worth, and I never got a husband/full time business partner. I lacked the essentials of being an “alive” and “active” participant in politics, even local community ones.
A long time ago I was told that I was “sold” to Oil Can Harry’s, the gay community. The trouble was, I was not planning to be gay. They needed work earnings in Hollywood, CA I was told as a small person standing under the immense blue Hawaiian skies of Oahu, Hawaii. It appears more than one of my “fake husbands” was from that group of people.
What’s killing me to this day is… back then I was given mixed messages.
Told I could be friends with gay men, however I was also told not to speak with them as some, maybe all are TRAINED to handle women in certain very negative, even hostile ways.
This fake marriage to some very talented and tough gangsters may have left me unprotected, even targeted by gang members who did not want to know me at all. Some people may have assumed the gay community would protect me. I feel it was hit and miss. Lots of conflicted agendas in dealing with me.
What upset me the most is I was willing to be on just friendship terms with gay peoples of Hollywood. They were not really interested.
I come across being trans to some people because I have a masculine mind, always have. My own human body is a mishmash of tough and fragile. I just wing it with people, whoever I come in contact with. My regular instinct is to just handle people I meet with consideration as a human being without regard of their sexual preferences. In general I like people until I get too much exposure to hostile, negative and violent ones who harm me in some way.
I am not certain what was said to the Hollywood gay community about me in the 1970s+.
I wish to say to Los Angelenos and Hollywood-ians and entertainment business people… thanks for having me around at all. Allowing me to visit at all! I am sorry it was not what I thought it would be. I do still enjoy motion pictures and tv programs you’ve created, produced etc. So keep on, keep on! 🙂
If ever I am in Hollywood on a back lot wandering around… please don’t hit me on the head… remind me to “go home”. I have been drugged in the past and didn’t know what I was doing!
Adding this on 7/26/23: I’m still waving! Reminding people I don’t have my own team, I am TOO SMALL to return. People who did know me decades ago have retired or other. Just not involved anymore themselves. Blessings to them also!
I’ve written on this before. It needs to be very clear to Los Angelenos and San Diegans… even Honolulu’s WHY I will NEVER EVER BE BACK to L.A. for a film or tv production.
I had to get enough memory back to be reminded of WHAT HAPPENED when I showed up in L.A. to help as a professional film person. I did get ganged up and and pushed around and away from people I needed to talk to… then coerced to helping complete strangers. It didn’t end well FOR THEM! I think some people got arrested outside of my view and awareness. IT IS NOT WORTH IT TO ME NOR PEOPLE IN L.A. for me to show up. I AM NOT GANGSTER ENOUGH and that’s who needs to be in those kinds of positions. I NEVER HAD ENOUGH OF MY OWN “PEOPLE” OR “STAFF”. I needed a TEAM of PEOPLE before I even visited studios a long time ago. I DID NOT.
I’ve looked like a ONE-OFF freelancer most of my life. The gangsters that knew of me… did THEIR OWN THING with their own groups of peoples.
If I had showed up and people were waiting for me, ready to “get my back” whenever necessary and BRING ME UP TO SPEED and introduce me and others to me… it wouldn’t have been a big deal to make a “cameo” appearance as a real or fraud producer. Honestly!
I was willing to put in time and effort to build a resume since the 1970s, but I believe I was not supposed to at all. I am disappointed. L.A. has it’s own thing going on and always has!
So now you know why I was misyoked and mislabeled so long. I was standing in for others and not connected well enough to be a REAL PART of the filmmaking machine of L.A. I was not that needed!
I HAVE TO RETIREMENT AGE and QUIT IN HASTE any commitment or support of Hollywood, Bollywood… even Dollywood… whatever. I HAVE BEEN TRULY MISTAKEN AS SOMEONE ELSE “risen from death” or something!
Great series, great characters… illustates the “Doctor Jekyl, Mr. Hyde” effect in a single human being. What if these were two different people: a Simple Me (the doctor) and Criminal Me (Hulk)? The doctor knew Hulk could do amazing things, but he couldn’t control like people hoped or wished he could. And others, love Hulk just being his unchained self even if he got injured, damaged, thrown in jail. Both of these characters exist in societies. Not always as obvious as Hollywood can paint them! (Incredible Hulk and promotional photography is copyright MARVEL ENTERTAINMENT, I admit to borrowing this from the internet without written permission and am wiling to remove it if asked.)
MORE THAN ONE MAN, who could have been deemed terroristic with a gun even talented at filmmaking… were involved with gangs and mafia, and getting movies created… USED MY NAME in the 1970s. I AM NOT HIM. I may have looked like HIS DAUGHTER at some point in time. But I was a stand in if you thought that. One used me like A SON… which later became Korean boys and women in Hollywood. I am NOT ONE OF THEM… or you’d all know ME PERSONALLY BETTER and I wouldn’t have to write this over 100mi+ away from Hollywood. Some of the men and women using my name may still be in Honolulu, L.A. even scattered all over the U.S. and internationally. I’m the young one some had to swear to protect and may be how my name got all over Hollywood… but new people over the years may not have known the origin. My “Hollywood dads” and “moms” and “brothers and sisters” used my name and others’ names in L.A. Like “criminal me’s”.
People need the “criminal me’s” in and out of Hollywood FOR MONIES… not someone like me. I was known as a big mouth child, but also a “quiet, creative Steven”… I cannot rise to the occasion of “criminal me” and go brute force movies and money for Hollywood. Nor can I traffic people.
More on “Criminal Me’s”
Another thing about “Criminal Me’s”. Some are obviously not as criminal as others. In my case I got a variety too. But what may need a REVIEW is how many criminals me’s are working against a certain “simple me”. Too many people ganging up on the same person, and not coordinated… equates to more damage and more people thrown in jail.
Some criminal me’s are intelligent and get really great things done! Others are more thuggish and just hate people, don’t love anything.
Corporate “Criminal Me’s”… I want to note, some corporation people come across very criminal… even if they play by the rules and laws of a country. Politicians too. They have to be educated about what’s going on and make tough decisions that could hurt thousands people, maybe millions financially. Some of it requires “management IQ”. I respect those. They DO KNOW ABOUT “simple me” people though, and know NOT to SPEND MONEY damaging them. “Simple me” people are typically not a threat.
I am a “Simple Me” who has been allowed to register motion picture studio names. It’s probably because the high up corporate people know I’m NOT A THREAT TO THEM. They know I wouldn’t do dangerous things. They’ve probably been watching too to see what I’d do. Not all know me well at all. Some have for decades though, but I’m not sure how well. Some may be sad that there are so many criminal me’s that I can’t even just visit major corporations, people from them, or be a “late bloomer” and do more in society than just write online… which is about all I have right now.
I’m capable of being a “corporation criminal me” but not to the level managers at big companies are. They have tougher jobs with a lot of back up, people behind them. I don’t have much at all.
This is funny, just came across this so adding on here…
Hahaha!!! Now.. not all criminal me’s look like batman… and… geezus, I’m NOT that kind of simple me! But I BET there are some “dynamic duos” out there that would surprise people. But the point here is… this catwoman really couldn’t do much to that Batman, and that Batman could do some serious damage to this cat woman… and it wouldn’t make any sense! However, some cat women like this may be hidden criminal me’s who have big criminal me’s elsewhere that could injure Batman… but is it necessary? Would it be necessary to damage Batman because he was .. taller? Male? Or drove a cool car? Or one of the cat’s liked him better? Some simple me catwomen could just give Batman some lunch money on an off day (like his fortune was unavailable).. you know? Lesson here is… maybe should be nicer to each other whoever we are, whichever suit we are wearing? Bat or Cat?
On Stealing from a “Cat Person”
Side note about my survival money in life. One of my father’s demonstrated to a criminal in my childhood… depositing $100 in a bank savings account. That was around the late 1970s. Within the last ten years or so, may have been 2014-2016 or so I was able to get a check from the State of Hawaii for around $200… the savings account had been closed and funds “went to the state”… which happens with a dormant account. The point is… all these decades… NOT ONE PERSON could claim and use the account. So if there are any criminals watching me, stalking me… waiting for a time to knock me down once and for all and bury me… they STILL WON’T GET my survival monies.
Helping create projects and products for people to work on. That’s the best way to explain it. To big people, I probably just looked like a small clever elf who had some ideas they used. They want me done so they can chat with other “elves” and “helpers” now. So I’m exiting the “Hollywood workshop”.
It isn’t clear to me who made me a “clever elf” for Hollywood/Bollywood people. It does appear I stayed an “artist child” who visited and was not employed, didn’t have a career with the entertainment capital of the U.S. (not sure if it is world or not now).
I can’t be an “ideation expert” for others. I wasn’t actually hired for it, just used. I was used as a stand in for others too I guess. I am done now though.
There are probably women too, many of them! I personally am not needed. Others have taken my place in person most of the time anyway. Best wishes to you all!
